Imagine that you are floating on top of the ocean. Your face is above the water and your ears are below to cover all sounds. Your eyes are open to see the sky, your lungs are full to keep you afloat and there is nothing to worry about. You are free, there are no weights or anything to pull you under. You just sit and enjoy the sights, the smell of the water, the feel of the water, the taste of the water and in that one moment, in that one second you just are. You are one withe ocean and all that is in it. You are at peace and there is nothing to do later, no thoughts of your past, of your future, no thoughts of things to do, people to see, what person to be. The clouds above are white and puff to different shapes as they float past. These are how I spend my days. Now that I have decided that my way will be different.
I will tell you what it will be different from and that was my life just one year ago. My days were filled with things to do, a job that took at least 50-60 hours away from me every week. A house that was beautiful but only if it was cleaned, painted, mowed, manicured, heated, and maintained. 2 cars to change the oil in, maintain, and fix. My garage was filled with tools, a lawn mower, and countless other things. I was chasing more and more. Once I got the house, and cars, and career, and all that I needed my ego kicked me in the face by saying no, this isn’t enough. What else do you want the house is full of stuff, my car is full of stuff, my garage is full of stuff, there is no more room for stuff. What else do you want and why are you not happy. I want more is all that it said. I realized that this is crazy, insane that I needed more, I wanted more, I was a failure unless I had more. I can remember moving and having a pile of things stacked up to my ceiling and feeling overwhelmed and amazed at what I have given all my time to acquire and it was on the floor to the ceiling all of it breakable, and at ease for destruction. I have since found my way.
A year ago I sold all the stuff, all the goodies, all the reasons I told myself why I have to work so hard, all the missed birthdays, weekends, and school functions. I sold it all. I had an epiphany. I had a realization that this is just not worth it. I was bored. I was uneasy, I was lost. I needed to have a life, I needed to know that what I was doing mattered and not in a way that made me some hero but in a way that me authentic. I wanted to find my passions. I had been reading many books about “the law of attraction” and just by wanting something it will come. I made a plan, I wanted out of my job and and my house, and my responsibilities so I can travel and see the world. We moved onto the open road and it was great. We saw New York City, Cape Cod, sold jewelery in the French Market of New Orleans and had a great time as a family. I am part of a foursome including my beautiful wife whom is very talented with <a href=”http://littlecircles.net”>paper</a>, my daughter who is goofy and will make you feel like you are the only person that exisists, and my son who is the most loveable kid you will meet. We are happy.
My foursome came to Hawaii about 10 months ago and never left. We were going to continue our journey in the states but felt led to just be here. The people are wonderful, of course it’s beautiful, and we all loved the culture. This is right now our heaven. I am now of the school of thought that you must seek to find your heaven. It’s not in another lifetime but now. It can be arrived at by your thinking. Your thoughts will create for you either heaven, peaceful and beautiful, or hell full of regret and pain. One year ago I chose heaven. I chose to break the cycle of thinking that I have to have a job, work it for 40 years, only be a parent, and I can probably retire, I am not at any functions or at any family events because I am at work. I am not mentally at home because I was at work or thinking about work ,or dreading work. I was bored and miserable.
I am thankful that I found my way. I am thankful that every day I realize the more I trust myself and believe in myself that I realize I am doing great. I am unstoppable. It is not just me I have come to realize that is unstoppable but everyone, no matter the circumstance, age, gender, or race. We are all part of this and all have equal share to heaven. We can all do it, we can all escape.